JANUARY UPDATE: January is Anniversary Month

Art:

I'm doing my project on the Chaos Theory/Butterfly Effect and I'm actually really enjoying myself. I'm definitely taking Art for A Level which means I HAVE to get the grades now, so LOADS of work. But art is one of the only things making me happy at the moment so I guess I don't mind the work so much.

Writing:

I've had a new idea that's been forming for a while but I've now figured out smaller details, I need to do a little more research before I can properly start but I'm actually really excited by this one, it has the potential to be quite epic.

Appearance:

I've been going to White Stuff quite regularly, because my brother is a sales assistant there now and he works very long hours and then stays at his best friend's house so going to the store's the only time I really get to see him now.

I've also been wearing a lot more make-up as of late, I guess I always need something to hide behind.

Music:

Muse, I've recently bought Muse's latest album and I love it, for Christmas I got some other CDs. I now own every album Muse have ever released so it seems

TV:

Merlin series 2 ended on an amazing high and I can't wait for series 3
I can't believe Gavin and Stacey's coming to an end I love it so
DRWHO _{Enough said}

Films:

The Holiday RULES
Sherlock Holmes = WIN
Avatar = SOON

Internet:

Haven't really been on much, sorry guys

Extra curricular:

Drama:

Teens Christmas party was sadly cancelled due to illness
School Play's over
House Drama's starting(Oh god)
And the Gigatoons Sound Christmas special was recorded yesterday, being edited as I type and has a special cameo from God himself...in the form of...Tansley?

Music:

I've been slaking. I don't give a shit.

Life:

I have done everything I can do to apologise, now I'm moving on and all I can do is hope others will do like wise.

Mocks = hell

My biggest problem at the moment is a sensation of being lost, I know I've been putting on an act about my real self for years and now it's all come tumbling down. It's just, I don't really know. If the one time your honest to yourself people tell you to kill yourself, it kind of knocks your confidence doesn't it? Now I've just got to take a deep breath, be brave and go for it, be myself and hope against hope people accept it. I think I need to be able to care again first before I'll truly be alright, because at the moment I can't bring myself to care about anything.

Family:

My family are being truly amazing, despite my Mother not knowing what to do with me.

Dave, I really need you. I try to hint at it, but that doesn't seem to get through to you. So here's  a public announcement, Davey boy I need you right now. So bad.

Friends:

To everyone who's found it in them to still love me, I'm forever grateful.

Bex, thank you for everything. You're the only person I think I've ever been 100% my real self around. I love you so much, you keep me sane. 1 year, going strong. Love you.

Happy New Year Everyone

My New Years Resolution?

Be honest, to myself, to others, try to show who I really am.
Care Again.
Start and finish writing at least three novels this year.

Quote of the day:

"You have to look after your lips this time of year, especially after recieving a mute from Athens."